Tears became a cycle <3

Monday, July 18, 2011

GBBB

Imma on my self-declared break.
Things never change do they?
Blarghhh. O:

a new start. (:
11:53 PM

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Life is really full of ups and downs.
One time it seems perfectly alright,
But nooo,
Its just what you see on the surface.

I just wanna consolidate my thoughts here and rant about anything.

First, wayyu back probably when school just started this sem.
That was when i decided not to care anymore.
I broke off from people that i would really call my BFFs then.
I really had an awesome time with you guys and its just something with me.
I don't think i am suitable to be in your clique.
It's just that at that time,
I only find myself happy when I'm with the 3 of you D, R, G.
And when I'm with your secondary school friends,
I can't seem to mix well.
That's what i felt no matter how much i tried.
I honestly think that there are some of them that didn't liked me and that really felt suckish.

Another thing would be that,
I understood that time that going LAN and town most of the time kinda doesn't suit me.
I'm quite a slacker.
And it's also money consuming.

Then,
I decided to rather just not go out with the big group of you guys.
And when you guys asked me to have that movie marathon/sleepover ,
I thought i should give it a go.
I enjoyed it.

Afterall,
I'm disappointed at myself for just 'ending' it like this.
It probably hurt your feelings when i started behaving differently in front of you guys.
That has got to be one of the greatest mistake in my life.

Secondly,
In class it seems to be going well.
But i guess it's not and never will!
I used to say how the class could still be one again.
But all that is impossible.
From what i understand is that when i join other groups,
They would be unhappy.
I really don't know what to do!
Because i really wanna be friends with all of you.

And then the recent thing that i just came to know about it today,
I really don't know.
I wanna work,
But am i too thick-skin if i just continue and wait for the reply 2 weeks later?
Or i just come up to you and say "hey, its okay, i don't need a job anymore(:"
WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY?
Am i really a bad person?

a new start. (:
9:28 PM

Monday, June 27, 2011

I saw this somewhere.
"I don't care if you hate me, just don't fucking pretend you don't"
Everyone are just hypocrites.
A single action and people complain about one another.
I don't think i have done really bad things to deserve these.

Everyone wanna find someone to blame.
And u choose to blame it on me, its fine, really.
From now on that is.
I don't wanna care anymore already.

I do what i say,
Maybe not physical stuff,
But when u tell me not to, i dont.
You don't wanna believe it's okay. nvm.
Afterall, trust is just a mutual feeling towards someone.
Its all up to you to judge.

I'm tired too actually.
I'm human, i have feelings.
Do friends behave this way?
I thought things were gona be different after the last 4 days,
And now u tell me this.
To think you call me one of your bestfriends,
~~And i really believed it.~~

After all that, u still think i tell them.
Im utterly disappointed this time.
No words can describe how i feel right now.
):

Goodbye.

a new start. (:
1:39 AM

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Sometimes, i get disappointed easily, when i expect something, i hope it happens.
Emotions can easily overcome me. Sorry for that :/

a new start. (:
12:43 AM

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

HI! THANKS FOR READING. HAHA!!!

a new start. (:
2:26 AM

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

This post is dedicated to xiangxiang our dearest terrapin .

these few months have been exciting with the addition of terrapins into our home.
they are just dam cute and little ((:
not until one of them fell ill with respiratory infection.
mom brought him to a vet and got medications for him.
initially, he seems to be getting better and started eating.
but it just didn't last long and he started not eating again.
this morning, mom and sis brought him to a vet.
but he was beyond hope and was brought to sleep )):
a shoutout to him -
xiangxiang, we'll miss you! hope you'll lead a better life on the other side.

`his last moment

He has always been a strong terrapin always really active even when he's sick.
not afraid of anyone and jz kept crawling.
before being quarantined, back at his tank he always situate himself on the top of the rock stoning and seems to be thinking of stuffs; thus the name.

saranghae! we love you xiang xiang <3

xiangxiang - passed away on 8/12/2010.

a new start. (:
11:51 PM

Friday, November 19, 2010

Stop

Life is tiring .
You have to meet everyone's expectations.
You can get involved in things for no reason.
Not admitting to your own mistakes.
Backstabs , conflicts.
Humans -.-
Don't know whats going on in everybody's head.
When can the world finally have peace? :/

p.s. random rant abt anything.

a new start. (:
12:41 AM